I'm coping better. Altair has actually tried stepping up to help me.
I still don't sleep great. I don't think the nightmares are going to go away. Nor the guilt.
I still obess over puzzles and it gets ramped up when I think people are in danger. I don't know if I want to stop that? It's been useful.
I still haven't let him take a peak in the room I reserve for letting my theories just, sprawl out. It looks a bit unhinged if you don't realize I intentionally leave space there for when I get more data.
Also leaving it in one room so it doesn't take over my life.
I don't sleep at all, and sometimes I envy those who can. It's too much time to be alone with my thoughts, so I'm sorry you're having trouble with it.
I've some experience with nightmares. [Fifteen years' worth.] If they come from guilt, it's hard to make them go away. Do you want to talk about it? I can bring tea.
...and can I see your theory room? I may have things to add.
I really hope that's just a crummy cracker jack prize that comes with being a Nephilim. Also that sucks either way?
I've gotten used to crappy sleep. My brain is too active. I tried mugwort tea once to try helping?
Bad idea. I went out of my mind for some reason.
I'm honestly not sure how to fix it? I feel like knowing I never properly brought my friends killer to justice just wrecked part of me. No one's going to know I found out who did it. I wanted him to pay properly. Not how it all ended up.
Unfortunately, yes. I'd begun to curb those nightmares, and then I got my longtime wish and never needed to sleep again. Monkey's paw. It's been almost a year since I had my last sleep. I'd enjoy even just a nap, but even if I lie down and close my eyes, I can't sleep.
Then again, Justice never sleeps, does it? ;)
[Hm. He's very familiar with that feeling.]
It can eat away at you, knowing who a killer is and being unable to bring them to justice. Especially when they've been able to walk free, living their life. ...but if I tell you that story, I'd want to do so in person.
When are you free? I'll bring chamomile, not mugwort.
Miles. You do know I had to kill him in self-defense, right?
I still sometimes feel this weird sense of guilt. I wanted justice. Not me having to beat him to death with an oar.
They sell boat oars at the museum because of me.
Um, mostly on Mondays. I try to not work on Mondays. I'm sorting out my house this month. I had a team move it closer to the Gregory Mansion. Like, I know Altair wants me to live with him and everything, but I still need "my" space.
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I still don't sleep great. I don't think the nightmares are going to go away. Nor the guilt.
I still obess over puzzles and it gets ramped up when I think people are in danger. I don't know if I want to stop that? It's been useful.
I still haven't let him take a peak in the room I reserve for letting my theories just, sprawl out. It looks a bit unhinged if you don't realize I intentionally leave space there for when I get more data.
Also leaving it in one room so it doesn't take over my life.
<SignalRed>
I've some experience with nightmares. [Fifteen years' worth.] If they come from guilt, it's hard to make them go away. Do you want to talk about it? I can bring tea.
...and can I see your theory room? I may have things to add.
<a.dyer>
I've gotten used to crappy sleep. My brain is too active. I tried mugwort tea once to try helping?
Bad idea. I went out of my mind for some reason.
I'm honestly not sure how to fix it? I feel like knowing I never properly brought my friends killer to justice just wrecked part of me. No one's going to know I found out who did it. I wanted him to pay properly. Not how it all ended up.
Also cannibalism sucks.
Yes. You may see the wall.
<SignalRed>
Then again, Justice never sleeps, does it? ;)
[Hm. He's very familiar with that feeling.]
It can eat away at you, knowing who a killer is and being unable to bring them to justice. Especially when they've been able to walk free, living their life. ...but if I tell you that story, I'd want to do so in person.
When are you free? I'll bring chamomile, not mugwort.
<a.dyer>
But yeah I think I'd miss sleep.
[ Oh.
He doesn't know? ]
Miles. You do know I had to kill him in self-defense, right?
I still sometimes feel this weird sense of guilt. I wanted justice. Not me having to beat him to death with an oar.
They sell boat oars at the museum because of me.
Um, mostly on Mondays. I try to not work on Mondays. I'm sorting out my house this month. I had a team move it closer to the Gregory Mansion. Like, I know Altair wants me to live with him and everything, but I still need "my" space.
<SignalRed>
I didn't know that.
For what it's worth - that's valid. Wishing he got justice, I mean. And having to kill him in self-defense.
<a.dyer>
If Altair turns out like Dylan I'm giving up on dating guys.
<SignalRed>